Dealing With Our Own Spiritual Biases
By Rev. Dave Roberts.+
A More Personalized View of Change.
Last month I wrote a message called
“Change,” and it was that most people
tend to change as the years go by. I
described a few people I had known at
least 30 years and for all of the people I
mentioned in that message, I don’t
think I mentioned the changes I’d seen
in myself, however, in the nearly fifty
years I’ve been a Christian. So, at the
risk of sounding egocentric, I’d like to
make it more personal this month as a
corollary to the last.
Pastor Bill Whorton and I both came to
Salt Lake by the call of God about 27
years ago, he from Montana and I from
Los Angeles. A call to Utah can be considered
a great adventure because when
you first get here, you have no idea how
things are going to go and if you’ll even
be here five years later. There is a high
drop-out rate but those who manage to
stay seem pretty dedicated to being here.
About ten years ago, Bill said to me that
he’d noticed that in all the years he’d
known me, “you haven’t really changed,
Dave. You’re very much the way you
were when we met in 1984.” I took that
as a compliment, I guess, because even
though my hands-on ministries tend to
vary from time to time, my sense of
being based in and ministering from
Utah is still the same. It goes back to the
prophetic word that was given to Jeff
Freeman and me before we left
California to come here: “When you go
to Utah, be a Christian presence and
pray.” I haven’t deviated from that as a
guiding principle and with the Lord
Jesus Christ as my God and His Word,
the Bible, as my foundation, I guess I
wouldn’t need to change anything.
Maybe just “adjust” as the needs arise.
But some things have changed since
those early days in the 1960s and,
frankly, I’m glad they have. Have you
ever read any of your old letters to people?
If Arthur Pope, whom I’ve known
since we were in high school in 1958
wants to get to me, all he has to do is
drag out our old correspondence from
when we were both new to the evangelical
faith.
Or how about sermons? Now those will
really get you backpedalling years later!
Again, quoting Bill Whorton, “I look at
some of my old sermons now and
cringe.” Yep! I do too, Bill!
St. Paul talks, in I Corinthians 14, about
things that when we were young being
acceptable but now that we’re older, we
put away the things we did back then.
One of the things that turned me off
about fundamentalism was that they
are often still using the same catchy
phrases, choruses and stories they were
in the 1950s. I remember the one line I
used to hear in response to the
Beatlemania of the early 60s – “I’d
rather be on the Rock of Ages than the
age of rock.” Nothing wrong with that
but if I went back to the fundamentalist
church where I’d heard it, they’d probably
still be saying it like a creedal
response and still be preaching salvation
messages with an altar call to the
same saved people who’ve been sitting
in the same pews for the last fifty years.
And no service would be complete
unless we referred to something about
“the good ole’ days.” No, I had to adjust
because preaching against the sin of
makeup in 1959 is not in the same universe
of what challenges we face in the
ministry world today. What we see
today we never saw coming back then
and I cannot afford to have an anachronistic
faith to meet the challenges.
One of the things that had to change in
me (and, let’s be realistic, would have
anyway because of lack of stamina at
67), was being a zealot over some pretty
crazy stuff. I look back now and cringe
over the mini-crusades I went on and
how it must have appeared to people
who loved me enough to overlook it.
Perhaps one of the biggest ones was
when I had just moved to Saskatchewan
in 1971 and I came across a tract that
was ripping on a New Testament called
Today’s English Version
(TEV), better
known as “Good News for Modern
Man.” The tract was showing how many
verses had been changed to water down
some pretty basic doctrines of the Faith
and I picked up the writer’s offense and
ran with it. We didn’t have photocopiers
in those days so I typed up a
mimeographed sheet of my own and
lifted the most salient points out of the
tract to make my point that the
TEV was
heretical. What appealed to my far-right
political position back then was that it
was, I’d heard, the most popular version
of the Bible being handed out to our
troops in Vietnam. Being both a hawk
on a fundamentalist interpretation of
the Bible and a hawk on Vietnam, I saw
it as a near-divine mandate to run with
this cause and mailed off the Gestetner
sheets with the purple ink still smelling
to a mailing list of maybe 25 people
back then. The thing about being that
kind of a zealot is that you really believe
you are helping God out. By the time
the last ones were in the mail, I felt a
sense of catharsis and that I had just
saved the Kingdom of God from the pitfall
of a watered-down gospel.
There were other drives that I went on
in those days that weren’t road trips.
They were generally centered on whatever
thing I felt the Lord was speaking
to me at any given time and I had to be
sure that everyone else knew about it.
But some things the Lord reveals in your
heart, often through His Word or in
your prayer times, are a promise to you
that He is going to see it through to His
perfection and glory; we can’t do it. He
should be able to speak to us individually
and give us our own personal daily
bread. Let me put it this way:
In the neophyte stage in my Christian
life, I felt that everyone needed to have
the same experience I did and went out
to promote it. I can remember several
instances of it that I did after I was baptized
in the Holy Spirit in 1962 and
after a healing a few years later. If those
things could happen to me, they must
be for everyone around me too! Not!
But the zealot in me propagated and
projected my own experience onto others
and that was where I missed what
God was really saying. His Grace got me
past those embarrassing experiences
and I now look back at them and either
laugh, cringe, or both.
Not that I’ve yet arrived even now at 49
years in the Lord. But I realize that the
zealot that was in me at the outset of
this spiritual journey got tuckered out
and now I can sit and see the hand of
God work in spite of me, around me
and, sometimes, through me, without
my having to force it, drive it, manipulate
it, passively aggress with it and I can
drop the verborrhea of hype that used to
explain my intentions.
No, it’s the Sovereignty of God that has
changed me and many of those around
me for good. I don’t need to feel jealous
or fearful for not having the near-fanatical
drive I did at 20 or the fundamental
fervor to put me on a one-man crusade
for whatever I thought God might
be saying that was meant for me and my
own personal growth. It took awhile but
I thank God for the grace period it has
taken to prepare me for going Home.
A truly fanatical fundamentalist zealot
would probably be disappointed with
Heaven the way I’m beginning to envision
it now. In this, I have changed.
And it’s really all about Jesus!
– Dave.+
Copyright 2010 by Dave Roberts.+
Dave.+
Copyright 2010 by Dave Roberts.+